I'm very superstitious...I knock on wood all the time, I've even gone as far as considering buying/making a necklace or bracelet with wood on it so I'd have it on me at all times. Thats about all I'm wary about though.

Do they think its possible to be a channel for emotions..and what I mean by that is..like a radio attenae and be able to feel other peoples emotions and fears, without even knowing about them, especially if they're something you dont ever really express or feel??

I would put pictures of my friends,family, loved ones, and myself in the time capsule and I would also make a list( or burn a CD) of my favorite songs and artists, make a list of my all time favorite movies, quotes and books! I would put copies of my art in there, I'm no artist, but I'm proud of my drawings. I'd also put a sample/small bottle of my dad's cologne and dried sunflowers and roses and some betty boop figurines so I'd never forget anything about my parents. I'd put the ring my bf gave me in there so whatever happens in life I'd never forget my first meaningful love. I'd put my journal and copies of entries of my online journals in there. Postcards and Birthday cards and other letters and cards that people have given me in there. Any home videos I could find would go into the capsule also. I'd put articles and Newspaper clippings about things that are important to me, or big things going on in general. I'd write a letter to myself, describing who I am, what I believe, my likes and dislikes, so when I open it up I'll either meet someone new, but feel like deja vu or I'd smile and be like "I'm still the same." I'd write a letter to those people who are important to me, to tell them how I feel about them and how much they mean to me, and give it to them in fifty years time or give it to their children if, gods forbid, something took them from life early.

Its Harry's b-day too! But besides that... I love all the books, before Deathly Hallows came out it would of easily been Prisoner of Azkaban, but I absolutely love Deathly Hallows, it means alot to me, not only because of the amazing story, but also because my mom gave me the book in one of our most trying times and it helped me (well..it still does) cope and understand that death is just another part of life, like Dumbledore says "To the well organized mind death is but the next greatest adventure."

I finished re-reading Triad by Terry McGarry yesterday and i decided I would tackle the task of deciphering the chapter titles..which only took me about 30 mins or so, but if I'm not mistaken there are a few letters that dont have a cipher/code so..I created my own! I've been writing in it ever since and since i love writing on myself, lol, i did it with my quill and ink..and omg..it looks awesome!! It looks sooo much cooler on the skin than it does on paper..no wonder why mages used vellum ; ] and whats even cooler is that I love..love..love writing in code (i was that weird child that created codes ALL the time..and wrote in it too). The only downer is.. I have nothing to read now :(

I love my friends :D I thought'd I'd let the world know that
*They help me put things into perspective and sometimes I think they know me better than myself lol
*They help me when I need it the most
*They are..wow..amazing even though I dont tell them this often o.O though I should
*( Didn't mean to make this a list..but oh well) I know I really dont say anything to them when they put flowers on my dads grave... but it means SOOOOO much to me..I seriously think they visit more than I do
*Did I mention they've been there through all the hard times I've had in my life so far? They've been there in more ways than I can count
*They're my anti-drug ..hahaha
*I love all my girls equally, even if I dont hang out with them all equally :p
*They understand me..kinda..lmao (I know, i know..i need my own dictionary/enclyopedia)
*They help me relieve stress..alot..thank you..I know its hard to deal with your own problems, let along someone elses..but you never complain and it makes me love you all even more
*My friends= my family in more ways then I care to explain
*We all are different..but the same? I love it hahaha
*They;re all having babies! Well not all of 'em..lol
*<.< even though we all fight and dont get along from time to time, we do get over.. we've been friends way too long to let something so precious pass us by
*Each and everyone one of them has something unique and beautiful that they bring to the table that makes our group whole
*We dont talk shit.. we "vent"
*They're very accepting =D
Ok..done loving on them..lmao somehow I got onto the topic of talking about them and not the books I love(which i planned on doing)
Oh yea.. just in case they, or anyone else for that matter, thought I love my books more than anything o.O I do love my friends more than my books( that should make u feel all nice and bubbly warm now..)

Is it weird that I want to get an e-book reader ie. Amazon Kindle, but still want to get some books in paper back?

being miserable.. these past few days have been the worst in ever... thursday i left all my money at home and i was over an hour away from home and needed gas..that was fun..friday tried going to the movies with my friends, but  got stuck in a snow storm and had to wait over 30 mins because of a accident, before i decided i was just going to turn around...today my ride didn't pick me up for work, when i got to work igot my paycheck..went to the bank, account overdrawn by $90, there went my gas and food money.. and then my bathroom somehow got locked from the inside and since its one of those old stupid doors and we put a bolt lock in the inside there is no way to get in, even with taking the hinges off..

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So I'm taking an art class this semester in college and so far..I really like it, I learned that I like shading..especially with charcol, its messy, but looks awesome..I just got done drawing in my sketch book, my hand is cramped up because I was drawing for 3+ hours straight (my teacher would kill me lol) I wish I had a scanner, but oh well...anyways, I was expecting something totally different out of the class and for a moment I wanted to drop it, because I wasn't sure if I liked it, but now, I love it..its pretty sweet, even though its costing me $$ atleast I'm enjoying myself :D off to do some hand uncramping excersises?

Wow...I just told my mom I wanted to be a history teacher and she said I would have to study many different aspects of History..cool cool I knew that, I love history so what? Then she comes out with the bombshell.."You'll have to study different relgions too probably"..ok? So what? After how close I thought we were...she just showed me how close we weren't..I thought she understood that me being pagan and looking up different religions, that it didn't matter to me who believed what? I mean I've taken a religion class ad I gave a presentation about it in HS and I've thought I'd shown her I was interested in other religions and even TALKED to her about it...but I must be mistaken.. I'm just mad that she assumed that I'd have a problem with it, she said "Ur so into your witchy thing"..hmph..I think she just wanted a jab at me because I'm no longer Catholic, I don't have a problem with her [my old] church...she just becomes bitter sometimes, I think she thought it was just a phase..well its not :P

So yesterday my mom saved a kitten..I named him Zeus, he's cute, but today my mom said she heard more! So, me being the expert kitty hunter, went looking for them, it didn't take me long because my trusty side-kick Midget [my puppy, who happens to LOVE kitties] helped me locate them...they happened to be in a shed thingy my dad built many years ago that is now filled with junk..I caught one..after he BIT me several times and then I see another one! It poked its head out right after i got control of the first one..I was a lil smarter the second time...i didn't just grab for it, i covered my hand with my jacket, but small little sharp teeth threw cloth still hurts...So now I have 3 kittens, I'm keeping Zeus, he's my baby lol but the other two I want to find a good home for, because if I didn't "rescue" them, they would have starved...I'm going to tame them, i dont think it should take me too long considering Zeus is almost the perfect kitten already!


oh by the way, please don't try this at home...I sustained some injuries to the hand from being bitten and not let go of.

I got a new kitten today! I woke up to the screams of a cat..it sounded like it was being murdered..i freak out, but come to find out my mom was just saving it before the dogs found him...he's adorable! I've got another kitten that we found like that..but i think hes cuter..hahaha my first cats name is Neptune and I just named this new little guy Zeus :D he's still a lil angry, but he'll be safer in the house! I'm trying to capture hsi brother/sister so it'll be safe too..I just love cats !!

There was an accident by my house, I was just lightly dosing and then I hear "BAM!" I sit bolt upright because I know that sound, its happened before, and my first reaction is to call the police..you know when your adrenelene is rushing and when you do stuff you don't feel pain..well I did that..I ran out of my house no shoes or glasses to make sure everyone is ok..go figure there everyone just crowding around. My feet hurt now, from running around on the asphalt, but I don't think anyone is seriously injured, but it scared me soooo bad.

 Certain parts of the world would be in different color schemes..oneside would be red, one green, one blue and one...gray! And everything would be the color that corresponds to their region..but different shades of those colors..so for like red, we'd have pink, rose, fire red, red orange..lol that would be awesome!   :D

 Love is..unconditional,non-exclusive, fun, happy, joyful, heart wrenching,sad,difficult, hard, easy,life changing,exciting,comforting,romantic,adeventurouse and blissful. It believe that because I've gone through all those emotions and feelings when in love, or just loving someone who was close. I didn't always believe all of this before because I didn't think love could be so complicated and difficult sometimes, I was naive to the fact that the people who you loved could hurt you, or leave forever, or break your heart. I always thought was easy and that everything could be perfect as long as you just loved. Its not, but it does make life so much more interesting.

 I'm starting my second semester in college Monday..I'm pretty excited I'm taking not 1, not 2..but 3 english classes lol I'm a lil insane, but Its going to be sooo much fun. One eng. class is just the regular college freshman eng, one is Intro to Eng. Lit, the other is American Ethnic Voices, and I'm also taking a History class and Public Speaking...whoo... I'm going to have my hands full with school and work! [but I'm soo not complaining, I'm psyched!]